10 promises to dogs...

一发不可收拾？

真的不懂几时。。。我们的关系会变得一发不可收拾。。。当到了不可收拾的局面，我真的不敢想象。。。

我与她。。。因为工作。。。我得帮忙她。。。就好像无时无刻的帮。。。当她在时，可以让我有过度紧张的感觉。。。我跟她说话时，一定要在她没有做其他东西时，要不然我就得重复又重复我所要表达的。。。这感觉真的好累。。。为什么我总得酱符合她叻？有时真得很累。。。可每当想到她不幸的遭遇时，我就会比较让步。。。等她做完她的东西时，再跟她讲。。。要不然就不出声。。。跟她讲过了这是坏习惯。。。可好像都没听进去。。。当她不在时，也总给我感觉她在。。。会有很多交待。。。东西南北。。。通过电话。。。-_-" 有时真得透不过气。。。 渐渐的，让我觉得，我一个人，我会开心一点。。。我知道这样想很不好。。。可是内心深处想的，又有谁能猜到呢。。。？ 有时变得我看到他，或接到她的电话，会很怕。。。也会有种不想接的感觉。。。很坏吧。。。到底怎么可以克服这样的感觉呢？只要跟工作没关系时，这种感觉就会不纯在了。。。难道。。。？

他与他。。。也是因为工作。。。高层与高层。。。在工作上难免会有磨擦。。。我明白的。。。可有时就是很怕。。。他们到最后会不爽彼此。。。也会因而把原有的关系切断。。。到时真的是一发不可收拾了吧？

how to explain this kind of feeling?

Today is really a bad day... i shouldn't come to work today... dun even should bother bout the payment thing... which at last is like chicken little nya... haiz...

didn't ask bout my sickness level... fine... but then feels like forcing me to do the thing i dunno how... which is move all the brochure out from the store room... and put in the training room... fine loh... since this is order from management side...but do they ever think of my feeling... haiz... how to express this kind of feeling? i dunno ... -_-" it's like... u already decided all.... why bother to ask my opinion again... haiz...

now my training room... once look inside... super messy... dun ask me why... and dun ask me how come either... i dun have the answer... and the solution also... the place is limited already... how else u all wan to change it.... do u all think by moving out all the brochure is the solution...?funny...

or maybe this is one of the way company want to cut cost... and use the office to an optimal level...?

arghhh.... if want to be like that... just direct change the office to fully cody branch... change me also... dun half this half that... and end up not enough place... if enough place... then still ok...
body body... please be healthy fast fast... this week friday wil have half year once de HP Grand Conference... i want to go...... as can meet many many other friend.... so happy...

and also saturday sunday visiting of penang friend.... need to eat bah kut teh leh... haha... and sing k maybe??? if my throat is ok lar... haiz...

bo bi bo bi.... fast fast recover... :p

ojt - on-the -job-training

talking bout my ojt... following cody to observe how they do sanitation service for the water / air purifier...

actually at first feel quite sien... cos thinking how come staff also need to ojt...

but then actually think another think... actually this is one of the management decision for staff so that we know what actually all our staff in the company is doing... from ojt... we can understand more about our work... their work... and even may helps the company to settle small small problem if customer call in to complain about there is something wrong with our product... hence, it might just a small small problem which can be settle through phone...

and another positive thinking is ... i can go out from office!!! haha... seems like quite fun can go ' makan again'... even through is working... everyday sit in office is really hard for me sometimes... dun even know what i wan... haha...

tomolo going to do the evaluation form after the ojt... hmmm.... add oil tomolo...

recently updates~~

its been long time i didnt update my blog again...

the last blog was the gathering with my secondary buddy... then... after that.... what i have done in this past few weeks dy...?

ok... after the gathering with secondary fren... i went to sungkai, perak for my company staff workshop... another team building activity i think...

1st day reach felda residence trolak, sungkai, perak... we went for white water rafting.... -_-" but the water not white color de??? haha... just a name onli lar... quite advantureous .... my 1st time also... but i got many presents after the activities... such as.... black eggs on my legs... about 4-5 eggs... big big and pain..... and .... i lost my ring... the ring... follow me so long time liao... haiz... maybe.... old de not go... new de won't come... this is what everybody saying loh....

wuwuwuwu...... its time to look for that NEW one liao... forgot past tense... look forward for presents... kekeke...

Some pictures too before rafting....




rafting mate.....

then after that week.... is super siao working week.... everyday no 8pm also nonid to go bek... some more work till 11pm.... oh gosh.... going to faint if every week one day is like that... doing the NEW TASK which being mentioned that... temporarily sales admin need to help on it... hmm... not say kenot help ... but... sometimes just imbalance if without ' something ' to motivate... haha... understand what i mean?? hope so...

then the months come to the end.... which end of the week mr teng han xiang came to kl... then ask us out to sing k......

ya.... they long time never sing k already... say already old lar... can't sing liao.... but i think still good lar... altou already outdate... but voice is ok also...... stil maintain... boon yi also... our special guest also... haha...

for the long time didnt sing... is not include me, and my k kaki... hmmm... almost every XXXX also visiting greenbox... haha... nonid spend $ de also got (cos got so many vouchers)... spend money de also got...

maybe this mth need to save a bit liao.... let greenbox earn too much already...


some happy pictures...

opps... only got this photo in my pendrive currently... more photos to be upload tonight...
brb...~~~

Tomorrow going to OJT with cody... some special arrangement for all the coway staff... -_-" dunno can take photo or not... haha...

Will updates after that...... :p

h@ppy g@thering~~

We had another gathering yesterday, at AEON bukit Tinggi.... for the year of 2009, this is the second gathering that is successfull already... haha... although not really 100% of our gang member is attending... but... at least.... WE Gathered!!! haha... feel a bit ' cheng jiu gan' cos this year is better than previous year... hahaha.... this is the second time gathering for the year 2009... hehehe... a bit siao liao right... haha... members.... please spare out ur time for next gathering ya... haha... let's make it a successful gathering again ya... next station.... cycling at Taman Pertanian... haha ... planing .... planning on the way...


Here are some pictures we took when the gathering... nothing much changes on us ..... hehe


sheau wei, wuan thien and khai ping...



khai ping, sheau wei and me...

how come both of u so lazy.....???

WE in our 'room'.... haha... nice...???

ask u sing k, u send sms...... khai ping so good in 'qiang jing tou'....... hahaha...

wuan thien salad...... so big plate .... yoh....

P/S : photos didn't upload according to the program on that day...

感触。。。

有时真的是不懂。。。 到底他们对谁都是那么热情。。。 还是因为我和某某人的‘有可能’。。。而在间接中得到了厚待。。。有时会让我不停的在这问题中徘徊，挣扎。。。 有时又想到。。。酱子想他们。。。很不对。。。会觉得自己是在以小人之心，度君子之腹。。。唉。。。每当想问个明白时，又怕自己的厚待会因此而没有了。。。很怕我得到的答案真的是那样。。。所以。。。就浑浑噩噩的混了过去。。。仿佛带着假面具面对他们。。。 也许人生。。。就是这样的吧。。。只要没把事情的真相摊开来得那么彻底。。。也许，就这样一辈子了吧。。。maybe 这就是所谓，不是每件事情都要问个清清楚楚的吧。。。这句话，也许会有它自己的意义。。。

而每次看到他们一家兄弟姐妹的关系那么好。。。都会额外的羡慕。。。会不禁的感叹，为什么自己的兄弟姐妹没办法像他们呢？他们都可以办得到，把心事摊出来讲，还可以有商有量的。。。为什么我的就不可能发生的呢?是自己也有戒心，还是因为性格问题呢？？？我也不知道。。。

最近常做了facebook里的心理测验，有些还蛮准的。。。譬如： 测验你的桃花运的。。。这是我的测验答案。。。

“你的桃花運其實還不錯，只是有時候你實在表現的太做作、太矜持，喜歡掩飾自己的感情，隱藏自己的感覺。導致人家就算真的對你有意思，可能也會因為猜不到你 的心意而却步 不前，甚至做罷。自己做的事只好自己承受。又要馬兒好又要馬兒不吃草，心裏想吃蘋果却偏偏告訴人家你想吃香蕉。不了解你的會猜得到你心裏想的那才真有鬼。 學會順其自然，學會大方表現感情。。。

这些还蛮准的。。。太做作，太矜持。。。真得很像我的性格。。。 有时候，我也曾经想过为什么自己不能像别人那么的玩得。。。maybe只要我再38 点，就可以了吧。。。 or maybe 我再38 一点。。。就能融入他们的话题。。。成为他们一分子呢？太做作，太矜持的我。。。我自己也不喜欢。。。

我需要学习的，应该就是。。。学会顺其自然，学会大方的表现感情吧。。。